The Debate

Catrin, a schoolgirl, 15 years of age enters.My mind barely gives me a headache wherefore cant behavior just be simple, with no worries, yeah, Im talking to you up there. You know what Im saying Why cant you give me more or less convey once in a while. Im still alive, I think I deserve some gratification for that, dont you think? Its genuinely hard domesticate living with that evil brother of mine and putting up with soundlesss winging, only if Im sure you know that, because your always watching over me, apparently. Dont you get bo wild up there watching everyone all day?(Sits down to think)I wonder what its kindred up there, you know, in heaven? I dont conceive Ill ever go there anyway, because Im a naughty girl, really. My mum has utter it so many times that Im starting to believe it Mind you Im non as naughty as my brother, my naughtiness is just fun and harmless, except Im sure that my brother has malice in his naughtiness He plays his guessing games on the compute r as if he were actually enjoying blowing somebodys brains out Sick, really sick, I always annoy him by chanting, Youre a mental psychopathologic murderer And past his eyes glow a fierce red and my legs start to quiver and my brain hurts because its ashamed of the mistake it has just done. My mum seems to always stop the fighting just before it gets going she has this talent, after all thats what parents are for(Gets up and puts her hand on her head, moving put down every now and then)Oh, why does life have to be so unfair Why cant I win the lottery or fuck off famous? I would absolutely love to be the next credence Hill or the next Madonna, but theres no hope I suppose, after all Im hopeless I cant sing to save my life Im useless, lets face it brain. Im thinking whether to sit (and be a swot) and work or sit and be a couch potato and watch television receiver all night? Such a hard decision, isnt it brain. What shall I do? My conscience says Cats, sit and write with pride you r English planning plot of land the devil inside me says Cats man, live life to the full, chill and relax in front of the box My head hurts and it feels as if its been torn in two, oh Chill, study Chill, Work Oh god, help Ok, lets try a different approach. What would mum destiny me to do? She would definitely want me to do my homework she always says how measurable my education is, just because she wasted hers as a child. My answer to her is that you square off from your mistakes, and so if I make a mistake and waste my education, then Ill learn Clever isnt it Well-done brain(Sits with legs crossed, leaning back on the chair)I wonder if other people sit and debate their lives with themselves like I do. Maybe Im the only one, I could be famous and I dont know it Imagine the headlines Girl debates with her own brain Wow, what a horizon What was I thinking of before going off on some wild tangent? Ah, yes I remember, am I to do my homework or go and watch telly, I still havent d ecided I know, Ill try another different approach, what would Grandma want me to do? Definitely, without a doubt she would want me to do my homework. Thats two against one, now Ok, what would my friends want me to do? They would say go and watch the telly, much more educational in their view. Now its all-square again, mum and grandma against my friends and me Oh, why cant life just be simple I know Ill just go to hunch